A short blog post about what’s going on …
Starting of with my new “main” art shop. If you follow me on instagram or if you’ve been on my website you may have stumbled upon my artworks, which you possibly even liked. If you did then you’re probably interested in checking out my new art shop on spreadshirt. Link to the art shop
It would mean a lot to me knowing that my art actually speaks people so if you feel like supporting me then you’re welcome to follow me on social media or check out my website.

What’s up next? It’s also about art and an upcoming comic.
I’m not telling much, but it’s going to be a series of short one-page comics about life. (slice of life) I don’t know yet when I’ll start with the uploads but I’ll keep you updated.
Anyway for those who like cute and relatable things, this might be interesting.

I now take Tattoo Design Commission (only the Design not the final Tattoo), price range is between 40 and 120 euro depending on the complexity of the motive.
Here’s an example of a design that I’ve done already:
Please do not reuse the design, as it is customized for the person who’ll wear it and therefore personal.

Snake Commission
Snake Design (A Tattoo Design Commission)

If you’re interested in commissioning me you may contact me here or on social media.

A lot is going on right now and even though sometimes it doesn’t feel like it, I’m still moving forward. Whatever your dreams are NEVER give up.
I know sometimes we’d love to simply let it be, because sometimes it sounds easier, but it doesn’t have to be. Whatever the path you chose looks like, you’ll always come across hurdles. Even if your dreams feels out of reach and far away you’re getting closer step by step. Someone else might be there sooner, but remember this is not a competition, it’s you who want to reach your dreams and you do it your way. If you’re slower than someone else than don’t let this disturb you, because everyone has their own pace of doing things.

I’m going to leave with this for now.
Blessed be.

Hello! How are you?
The last weeks have been quite and for a reason:
My first real exhibition opened yesterday! Wohoo~ ! ♥
And what’s awesome too is that one of my artworks has been sold too! The buyer will get it at the end of the exhibition and honestly seeing him was a big surprise because it’s someone with whom I’m working on a project! He said he saw that I had an exhibition in the newspaper and that he decided to surprise me and I swear he did. xD I was shaken.
Right, anyway this experience is really exiting. And this is only the beginning …
I feel like the last weeks brought back my motivation and energy. I’ve realized that even though I knew what I wanted I didn’t really move. Isn’t it that sometimes we feel misunderstood and overseen and in the next moment we’ll realize that we don’t even understand ourselves? How are others supposed to understand you or to see you a certain way if you don’t do it yourself? How are others supposed to acknowledge and take you serious when you don’t yourself? You might not even realize that you don’t, but if you did believe in yourself then you wouldn’t struggle to move on towards your dreams or not? At the same time sometimes we need to stumble and fall to rediscover ourselves, don’t we?

Sometimes life moves on so fast that we almost lose sight of all the little things surrounding us. It is now that your living not yesterday, not in an hour and not tomorrow. Right now whatever you’re doing is the moment to live.

Do what you love and live your life after all no one can take it away from you but you yourself. So move on and live the moment. Our thoughts form our reality, don’t they?
If that’s the case than you’re capable of everything. — An ye harm none, do what ye will.

Btw. I made a Flyer for the exhibition and thought you might be interested in it that’s you’ll see it at the end of the post. (It’s only the front page though)

Blessed be. ♥

Exhibition "Herbstflimmern" Flyer
Artwork and Design by yukiryuuzetsuart (me)

 

Last year my sister started watching Supernatural. It didn’t take her long to ask me to cosplay Sam and Dean, because you’ll laugh but they really are similar to us expect we don’t argue that often. But the rest I swear – xD
Anyways since she kept insisting on me watching Supernatural I watched (binge watched to be honest) it at the beginning of the year. It was just to awesome.
Also since the year began I felt really low on energy but Supernatural really kind of helped me. Right now I’m rewatching it because it always helps me to relieve some kind of stress and motivates me. Actually the best compliment you could hear is that I have a Supernatural OC (OC=Original Character) which doesn’t happen often when it’s a show with actors (a show that’s not animated or else). You could say it’s huge compliment to the actors, because as said I have a lot of OCs. It’s just not a lot that are on shows or movies played by actors. If you’re interested in knowing more about my OCs and how they are created then let me know what you want to know about them and stay tuned for another post that’ll be coming up.

Back to Supernatural … There is also the Supernatural Cast: listening to panels, following them on social media etc. will always lift me up to the point of me crying because of their kindness. I’m sure that some of you will relate.
If there was away to thank everyone from the cast and behind the scenes without hesitating I’d be right there.

Anyways we cosplayed them in September for the first time and wearing Sam felt so comfortable which is why I’m so excited for the next times we’ll wear them.
He was one of the characters that felt so good to cosplay this year and that reminded me of why I’ve been cosplaying since 2011/2012.
Right now even though I’m kind of low of energy I still feel really motivated to do a bunch of things (which I am) including cosplay, art and more.

That’s it for today! Always stay tuned and never forget that you are not alone!
You’re loved and have a great day!

See you soon!


Photo Credits:
Photographer: @nana_jane1988 (instagram)
Dean Winchester: @cocos_logbook
Sam Winchester and photo pdit: yukiryuuzetsuart (me)

I am tired. — Honestly I don’t even know what the point of this blog will be, but I’ll just go on and write. Maybe someone will understand.

I’m not about to say that this year is a bad year because there has been worth, but somehow I feel tired. I’m good but at the same time I’m not sure if I am.
All I wanna do is art. — Of course no one ever said it was going to be easy and I’m not complaining about the fact that nothing happens overnight.
Probably I should be grateful. I got a side job, one that I can’t complain about, so that in the meantime I can focus on doing what I love and working on various projects.
You know this feeling of working against yourself instead of moving forward?
It feels like I am stuck. Stuck in … overthinking? Maybe. It sounds weird but all I wanna do is create art, write poems and stories, edit videos, share it with the world. I want to spent time in nature without having to worry about every detail I should to in the meantime. All I want is to live. Have fun and work to live instead of living to work, as a friend described it well last week. Can you understand what that means?
I am not unhappy, just probably unfulfilled and it kind of sucks. Confusion sucks.
I’m sharing this because somehow maybe I hope that I’m not alone feeling this way.
23. A friend from the academy which we both went to and I had a discussion shortly after graduating about how even the thought of having to work in a regular job kind of pulls us down. If you love what you’re doing than you’ll have enough reasons to love your job, right? Sure. It’s just about finding the things that you love. So why am I stuck? Again all I want is to create and enjoy life even when the brain is kicking in really hard. This year is so weird because I know what I want but also it seems like I don’t.
It’s not like I don’t want to work and again I should be grateful, because there has been progresses over the year. They clearly are visible. But at the same time it feels like I’ve locked myself up in cage, lost the keys and can’t get out of it any more. I want to work for something that has meaning to me, for something that makes sense. Nothing makes me happier than spending days on an artwork to see people interpret it in so many ways, to them smile or even cry and how it even helps them go through hard times.

When captured birds grow wiser, they try to open the cage with their beaks. They don’t give up, because they want to fly again. ~ Masashi Kishimoto (Author of Naruto)

When I was younger this quote inspired me a lot and it still does. Though somehow it feels harder than thought. What is keeping me from moving?
I’m sure I will make it and maybe I have to go through this to grow, still it sucks not to be sure what is going on with oneself. Is anyone here reading this experiencing similar feelings? (If you feel in a similar way than know that you are not alone.)
Does anyone even understand the problem hiding behind those words?

What was the point writing this blog post. Who knows?
Anyway this is it for today. Have a great day! ♥

I am a sloth. No seriously the last weeks have been quiet on this blog.

To be honest with you the last months felt like roller coasters. I had a mini job which I quit because of a few reasons which I’m not going to complain about here. I don’t know if it’s because I’m still young which is why I struggle with having a job so much or if it’s a general thing. The mere thought of having a job makes me extremely unhappy and miserable. You’ll probably tell me not to complain about it or something like that which I can understand, but see I was never someone who wanted to do this one thing for the rest of my life. I studied Illustration and Graphic Design which was amazing and to be honest with you this school knew that a lot of us were planning on becoming self-employed. I love making illustration, doing art and also designing — yes! — but also do I love writing poetry or editing videos. For me having a mini job or a part-time job is for the purpose of paying insurances etc. but somehow having a job is tiring me out so much. All I want is to do what I love. Why am I telling you this? Because talking about it made me realize that in my surroundings there were others having similar feelings and maybe you can relate too, also did help me to get to know myself better.

I’ve been running in circles for months now and I still don’t know how to deal with it. So if there’s anyone self-employed or someone who struggled with similar problems out there reading this then you’re welcome to give me some advice or tell me about how you did it.

Actually the lasts months surprised me. I got three storyboards in commission two of

them are for the same person. There was a flyer to do. I had an exhibition with now three upcoming ones. There’s eventually a collaboration coming up and I mean things are slowly building up. But I don’t know what to do about the mini-job or part-time job because it feels so wrong. It’s really depressing.
Do you have any advice on how I could still do it?

Next upload will be more uplifting I swear but right now I’m really stuck. This is it and as I said you’re welcome to give some advice or tell me your story.

Have a great day. And whatever happens enjoy your life. All you can do is learn from up and downs and grow. You’re loved.

 

It’s easy to get lost and forget about what makes you – you. To stop listening to your feelings or rather to stop listening to your intuition, because what bothers you the most is that you’re doing something differently than everyone. At this point it’s easy to force yourself to do what everyone does out of … pressure maybe?
But where’s the point in doing something that doesn’t make you happy? That just doesn’t feel right? Seems contra productive, doesn’t it?

Sometimes we need a reminder to take steps forward and not backwards.
You choose your path because you want it, not because everyone takes it.
And if there’s one thing that I’ve learned in the past then it’s that if your intuition tells you something then you better listen to it.

You’re stuck and it feels like you’re running in circles, always coming back to point zero. How do you move on? In fact it’s not that hard:
Sit down. Take a deep breath. Take your time. Listen to your heart. Once you know … once you remember who you are, what it is that you want and what feels right to you it’ll be time to move on. Some are going to try to prevent you from walking your own way and don’t expect everyone to understand your actions, because not everyone will. Also don’t expect everyone to accept your choices, because not everyone will either, let it be their business though.

What matters is how you feel about it and if you feel comfortable with it then just move on. Don’t let anyone or anything keep you from walking forward.

Design by yukiryuuzetsuart – Tools: Snapseed + Medibang

Almost two months ago was my last blog post, for which I deeply apologize. It became very quiet here which isn’t what I had planned by starting a blog.

The last months I was given the opportunity to work on three storyboards. Two of them are still in progress. I am grateful for those tasks, especially because two of them are from the same customers which means there is a customer which I could persuade enough with my latest work for him to come back. The third storyboard is for a bigger project and I am glad to get to see the progress of it. All in all I find it interesting to see how, even though the tasks are quite similar, the approach is very different. It’s nice to work with different people and to get to see different characters.

By now I can only say that I really enjoy working on storyboards for other people and I hope that I will get to do more of them in the future.

I am grateful for these experiences I am allowed to make and the lessons that I gather from it.

What about you? What are you grateful for?

 

No worries! The journey goes on.
Somehow currently I find it hard to upload consistently. I realized that it doesn’t only have to be blog posts, but also on instagram or youtube do I find it hard. Maybe you can give me some advise on how to be consistent? How often do you share content?

The last animation I’ve done was the character head turning. That’s not much but you know what? Instead I made a friend happy by illustrating her characters as a birthday present. Also do I really have a lot of nice projects in future and also some that I’m already working on. I just need to get back to myself, to clear my mind, heart and soul. Because currently I’m a little confused and when I’m confused I usually just take a break and try to spend as much time on my own as I can, like going for a walk and spending time in nature or just chilling, read a book or something, so that I can soon follow my intuition again. Still a happy wolf though! Do you know what I’m talking about? If you do how do you deal with these types of situations?

I finally started practicing animation and guess what – it’s funny.

Before I’ve only made a few experiments (e.g. my youtube end screens or little birthday stop motion animations) and it never really was something big. I just did it. But now I decided that I wanted to dig deeper into it, because I really want to animate more which I can’t if I lack the skills, right? So for anyone who’s interested in following me on my animation journeys, here you can. I will keep you updated and who know’s maybe one day you’ll see a whole movie. lol. xD (p.s. I’m actually about to work on a motion graphics project so stay focused)

Besides my mom and I watched the movie “Song of the Sea” by Tomm Moore a few days ago which really motivated me to learn how to animate. Not only did I love the artworks but also the whole story was really heart melting. I really enjoy deep stories like this one. Have you watched this movie, too? I really recommend this one. Is there an animated movie you can recommend me?